brain train

~a continuation from my previous post (this is my bear)~

I woke up this morning struggling with the notion that my thoughts could be that powerful. I don't want them to be that powerful. over breakfast, I opened my copy of A Course in Miracles. currently, I'm on the second chapter.

something that stuck out to me was this quote, "You prefer to believe that your thoughts cannot exert real influence because you are actually afraid of them...there are no idle thoughts. All thinking produces form at some level."

It left me feeling a little bit like Steve Urkel.

ummmm...



...DID I DO THAT?!?!?

and then I lost my phone. pretty much the entire morning, I was wandering around looking for my phone. I had given up and decided it would show up at some point, when suddenly it appeared in a really stupid place where I never put it. not TWO SECONDS after I found it, I get the tweety-bird notification that Max Ryan is live on Periscope doing a lesson from A Course in Miracles. wha-whaaaaaat?

the discussion pretty much re-affirmed what I had read in the book. I don't remember exact words, but through the course of the conversation, Max affirmed that this work is not for the weak of heart. it is scary. some people can't do it. some people give up halfway through. but if you stick with it, you will find peace. and I think he's right.

so I think I'll take my "bear" experience as a lesson. I need to train my brain. I cannot continue letting it run amock with incredibly negative thoughts/fantasies/whatever-the-heck-they-are.

here's another quote that got me:

"You are much too tolerant of mind wandering, and are passively condoning your mind's mis-creations."

my brain is a jittery squirrel, and it needs training.

through yoga, chanting, and meditation, I am working on it.

through the work I'm doing with Max Ryan, I am working on it.

for the rest of the day, I will need some ammunition.

today, when I caught myself playing out another incredibly negative story in my mind, (I will not even describe it, because that would give it power), I put on some happy music and sang. here's the song, in case you need a pick-me-up. it's one of my all-time favorites about re-purposing (one of my favorite hobbies). and it's funny/creepy at the very same time, which is right up my alley.

thanks for reading, and have a large day!

xoxo,
erin